When I went to the Dr the other day they asked if anyone could drive me home. I told them no. I don’t really know anyone here. If it was a real emergency there is someone who lives here who knows my familiy who could help, but I’ve been here two years.
I’m not sure how to meet people and sometimes I’m not sure if I want to.
The fact that I work second shift makes this very difficult. I work from 11:30 – 8:30 Pm. I was hoping that I would get a more 9-5 job with UK or start college again but neither of those things worked out.
I have some social anxiety and other issues so it takes a tremendous amount of effort for me to go into new situations.
I’m not even sure how to explain it. I’m afraid that if I go to a church one of two things will happen.
1. I’ll go and enjoy the sermon and not really have any contact with anyone else. Which I can do at home listening over the internet.
2. Someone will reach out to me I will need to work very hard to reach out in return. Then they will try to get me involved in something and I will have to explain how everything they offer happens while I am working.
It probably doesn’t make any sence to any one else why that would be so devistating to me but trust me it would.
I’ll come back to this later. A live podcast I listen to is coming on early and is taking over my speakers. (that didn’t make any sense either but trust me I need to close some windows so it will stop stuttering)
